Lessons Learned

In every secret bloggers life, there is a day that looms somewhere in the misty future that is both dreaded and in a sick way sought for - the day the poeple in your life find your blog and figure out your silly little code names and understand the way you really feel - sometimes this works out well and other times.....
So from the ominous beginning lines I think we all know where this post is headed. Today, I discovered that hot kineseology guy had read my blog. He saw the website on my laptop while he was sitting behind me during a post I was making in class. Needless to say if you have followed my story from the beginning there are perhaps some things that are best left unknown to people you are potentionally trying to get to know better. Things like, your sex life, ex-boyfriends, posts labelled "My name is Pink Polish & Im A Dirty Whore." I was blissfully ignorant that he had read these things until I was looking in his binder, bored, and discovered the website.

**Side note: To Better understand the consequences behind this event it is important to know that for the past few days I have been talking with Hot Kin. Guy (HKG) and we've had some pretty good conversations. I have been able to actually talk with him - he doesnt appear to be one of those guys who just want sex or is looking for a good time for awhile until the next best thing comes along. So bottom line - we've kind of been 'connecting' i guess you could say, but this blog will probably stunt this growth lol End Side Note:***

Once I had confronted him about the website he claimed he had not read it. I found it hard to believe that he hadn't. Later however, he decided to 'put everything on the table' and told me he had read it. I was quite embarassed and stammered out justifications for the things I had written, when the conversation had finally ended it was agreed upon that he would no longer read the blog to allow me to write more freely and un-guarded. However, I havent lived this long to become naieve about the way things work in life. Human nature being what it will, he will inevtiably read the blog again, whether out of curiosity, boredom or in hopes of getting a better understanding of me or maybe even just to find out my secrets. Although, even with that knowledge I will continue to write and shall not censor my posts - and maybe, finally a man will understand what it's like to live in a woman's mind.

P.s. for HKG: I put that picture up just for you ;)