Romance is in the Air

I just finished watching Pride & Prejudice (the new one with Keira Knightley). I tell you, there is nothing like a good period romance flick to get a girl in the mood for love. It was so romantic and beautiful! [God I can be such a sap] However, it is movies like these that I would like to blame for mine, and probably many other women's, failed romances. Sweeping scenes of romantic professions midst breathtaking english scenery, heated moments in the rain, the passionate kisses against a backdrop of the rising sun, these are the things that make real love nearly unbearable! In any relationship I have every been in, even if i was in love or am, it will forever seem like a transient love, because I won't settle for anything less than an epic romance. Is it really so much to ask for? Perhaps I have become so brainwashed by hollywood stories and propaganda that I have developed unrealistic expectations about love. Expectations which are now preventing me from ever fully giving myself to one person because I am forever Elizabeth, wandering the vast landscapes alone waiting for my Mr.Darcy to find me and so any man in between is just filler. But why shouldn't I be allowed that grandiose love? Why can't I have the passion? Because it doesn't exist? Then what's the point?

Perhaps it's like that song "Its a secret no one tells, one day its heaven, one day its hell. Its no fairy tale take it from me - but thats the way its supposed to be."